on this monday morning

  • the theme in my email box today is “the fear of success” and “making mistakes”
  • i find that rather fitting. heh.
  • shit.

  • i haven’t been feeling well this weekend
  • and i could tell because i was just so sleepy even after having a full night’s rest
  • its what happens when i get depressed
  • i just want to sleep forever
  • m understands my feelings even though he may not understand why i’m feeling that way
  • and just lets me be present with it
  • doesn’t try to feed me some corny optimistic crap to mask such feelings
  • thank goodness
  • at the same time, a very horrific tragic event happened in tucson
  • it was very scary.
  • scarier to know many innocent people were injured
  • that safeway is one that i shop at.
  • it could have been any of us
  • politics is pretty scary in arizona, actually.
  • new school semester starts today.
  • i use our dinner table as my study desk
  • its a mess
  • alright, time to go.
  • xoxo
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